A Celebration - Really?

As today is the last day of the year 2007, the media - radio, tv, newspapers, mags are all blasting with ads on celebration blablablabla.

Is there really anything to celebrate? Its been years since I last set foot out to a party or just to hang out to usher in the new year. Couple of reasons to that.

Firstly, I hate the human traffic not to mention the actual vehicle traffic on the roads. And the most horrendous of all, the parking congestion. Even if you managed to find a parking spot - not necessarily a good one, you may still be forced to fork out much more than you would normally do.

secondly, the age is catching up to me.

This year I am plagued with anxiety. At the stroke of midnight, I will now be categorized under the late something category. Thats one of the reason I am not so not looking forward to the new year. Neither am I looking forward to be the spinster :(

As for resolutions!!! I have plenty, but I have long given up writing up any, as its hardly ever fulfilled. hehee.

Many things had happened in this month of december, have been wanting to blog about it a thousand times, but just the lazy bone caught up with me. Will see what happens. I will heading back to work on 2nd Jan.. dang man, how time flies. Hardly did anything and in a blink of an eye, its over over *sob*sob*

But not wanting to be a cynic, I shall wish everyone a Happy New year!!!!

Evan Almighty

As we all know this movie will never come to our shores due to the reason, that certain people think that the people of this country is easily swayed.

Anyways.. i just wanted to say that this movie is a great one. Go watch it if you have a chance.

It says a lot of things....

But one thing that stuck with me is
How to do you change the world?
one Act of Random Kindness at a time. ARK.

Yeah.. man...............

Weak....

I know I haven't been blogging since bfore the 20th of December. I wanted to but the lazy bone in me just forbade me to do it. hehehe.

Anyways... as the title says, I have been weak. Been purging since this morning at 7am and by 12pm, I would have already visited the good old little john 10 times!!!!

When it started, i took some chinese tablets - poh chai yuin. Not sure if you know what it is. Then even after 2 friggin hours i was still purging. What to do!!! there is no lomotil in sight in the fridge. Called my sista who is away fixing her car... ahh she stole it and put it at her house when she had the bug couple of days ago. Thank goodness she lives like 2 doors away. got the medication, took it.. and mama mia.. still visitng the little john leh................

Now another different bug attacked... the puking bug. I could feel the cram in my tummy. The pain ws more like gastric pain rather than anything else. :~~~~~

I decided to still eat , at least a bit - even if its a tiny bit. i took bread. like maybe quarter cup of milo without milk and went to snooze. Holly shit.. couldn't coz stomach was uneasy. my brother kept asking me whether i wanted to go see the DR. I said maybe wait it out for awhile and after that.. everything just subsided. Thank You Lord... at this time i am typing this, i feel better....

But what a waste of my 1 day leave. hehehe.

not realy hor, coz i am have wasted my 1 week at home doing nothing...... nyek nyek!!!!

BUT BUT i had plans today, to clean up my room. but i guess someone decided getting sick was the priority.

p/s my dad asked the maid to cook coz my mom has been away since sunday. I think it must be something not clean or stale. I woke up around 3.30pm and my bro stated that he also had the virus. SCARY... i want my mommy back!!!!

Finally

Thank God. Finally the issue is resolved but not without numerous calls to TM. And kept following up.

Little by little things start unearth. What surprised me was i upgraded to 1mbps in sept and after a week since i logged the ticket, the Call Center person told me that the technician has asked me to upgrade my package to 1mbps to get a higher speed. I was appalled. Excuse me, i am already using that package. hence my ticket was to complain about the inability to get that speed that i paid for or rather am paying for. Crazy right.

Anyways... finally got fixed today afternoon. Thank God. As of yesterday I started to pray different for this issue. Before that i kept asking Lord to please let the issue be resolved. The report is now already in its 8th day. Then I decided to ask God to guide the person who is solving my issue. May God grant him the wisdom to see whats wrong and fix it.

Glad its finally resolved but I do pray it stays this way.

Today is also my last day of work for the year!!! yahooooooooooooo

Today my mood was exceptionally bright and chirpy.

Short Changed

I feel so cheated.
Sometime last Aug, i upgraded from 512K broadband line to 1mbps line.

Guess what??? I am getting MODEM speed seriously. this is the result frm the provider's speedometer at their site.

for the past week, I have been calling them every friggin day and they never seem to be doing anything.

I feel really ripped off. I can understand that you are not able to reach the ful capacity of 1mbps but having to settle for modem speed is extremely bad!!!!!!!!

You Look Tired

Thats whats 2 different people I met this week told me.

Hmmm.. don't know whats wrong with me but I am darn tired all the time.

Something wrong with me?

Kids these days

Sigh...
what is becoming of the world today and what more the kids today.

Every year end, the co, will have this community proj event where they invite homes to come and then have the children make their 3 top wishes. The event then will be held at some hotel where kids meet their sponsors.

This year would be my first year participating in this event. By the time, i got to the board, all were left were bigger kids and I decided to sponsor a kid who is 15 years of age.

Pretty simple 3 wishes.
1) jeans + tshirt
2) sport shoes + socks
3) basketball.

We were given a budget and if it exceeds that we can replace that with another gift. We are encouraged not to spend more than RM300.

Anyways, I went shopping and bought what i thought was nice and reasonable priced.

oh boy! i wasn't prepared for the shock i got when i gave the kid the gift at the end of the event.
He asked me whether i bought him either quick silver, billabong, nike tshirt or what? I was like... open n u will know. He didn't want to and I mean Thank Goodness for that lah. If not he will know that did not buy in branded stuff but stuff that was nice and affordable. What are becoming of kids these days.

These are orphans, suppose to be poor?? i don't think so no more. These days. these ppl are too materalistic.

shocked what is becoming of the kids.

Next year if i were to sponsor, i want to sponsor younger kids.

Oh might i add, he was a rude kid, more like a delinquent type. Rude , rushed for food. Took alot of food, and couldn' finish.. and kept taking... totally ill mannered. I talked to some people after the event and was told that some of the other kids from that home were equally ill mannered. So thats it.. next year byebye no more sponsoring kids from these homes.

When and IF i become a parent, i will teach my kids to be thankful to have a roof over their heads, a shirt on their back. I want them to appreciate what they have. And look at things beautiful not bcoz of the price or brand... but for the thing is beautiful in itself regardless of brand or $$$ tag.

Breakdown

No NOT me....

Today out of a suddenly at work, i heard sobbing sounds behind me, I turn back to see my cubicle neighbour balling out. I didn't dare go to him and ask.. whats wrong. He sob sob sob.. then he stopped. I then msg him and asked are you ok?

he said he is emo. Just yesterday he told me that he has been diagnosed with chronic depression. When I asked the dr diagnosed you? he said no i told the DR that. On Monday he was on Medical.

I have known him for 3 years, starting off in the same team, he joined like 2 months before me. In year 2006, we had a restructure. Our team was disolved and myself and him was pulled together with my super to our current team. Well, what i believe is that our super pulled u to be with her.

For the past 2 years, life hsn't been easy. Let me tell you why. Coz this is not what both our skills are. Eventho he did have abit of skills in this area, his passion is not this. he likes development work. so being in infra side is just not his forte. He like myself have been asking for a movement for 1 year now and the answer given to the both of us are the same. Which is big flat no.

Today he just couldn't contain it any longer and broke down. Also least to say that my super has been hounding him down... kind of pitiful. But I guess his only way out is to leave if he can't stand it anymore coz staying on isn't gonna change anything.

I hope i don't get to that stage too. I feel what he feels coz you're never good enough.. for that someone... who has authority over you. Its sad sad sad.

Bangkok

As you would have guessed that I went on a vacation over the Deepavali long weekend. I actually had to take one day off but its all worth it. The trip at least and the shopping spree that i did. But i beg to differ about the company though. :P

Let's start from the beginning. During the MATA fair that just passed, I went to get the ground package for the tour. It was also my very first experience of MATA fair. :) Yeah yeah i know.

Anyways, booked the air asia flight and the package which included hotel and hotel transfer.

The hotel is pretty old hence the bed i have to caution, had bed bugs which I had to suffer the bites and till now still have the red scars to show. Hope it will heal soon.

Shopping was excellent but of course when one says one is going to bkk for shopping, its not about the brand or the quality stuff. But i like it... coz i don't care as long as its nice and cheap... :)

Here goes some of the wares which i bought. Some i have already given to the rightful receipients.




Black with White Stripe blouse - bought for RM17 = 170 baht.
Bought at The Platinum Fashion Mall.





















Addidas baggie = RM24 = 240 Baht
Bought at Chatuchak weekend market










RM20 each if buy in wholesale (3 and above) Thats the term used wholesale means 3 or more. I bought the white pattern in peach also. :) Very worth it ya.... RM20 ONLY!!!!












Puff Sleeves white blouse = RM23 = 230 baht.
Bought at Chatuchak Weekend Market. The lady didn't want to reduce the price.. :( just a tiny bit.... But ok lah.

















Shorts - forgot the price, i think it was RM15 or was it RM13?











Tshirts

The light color was purchased for RM19 each when purchased 3 or more. I bought 3 but the grey one has been worn so not in the picture.

The polo one.. is about RM25 - not cheap lah this one but cheaper than the real thing loh.







I want to make another trip there!!!!! maybe next year. But with someone who don't mind walking and taking the sky train rather than wanting to take taxi all the time.

Updates

I haven't been blogging much.
Its much due to laziness and just not wanting to do anything....
Sleeping seems to be like the best remedy.
Scrabulous seems to be the next best remedy. hehee

Brief update
1) Went for vacation over the Deepavali holidays. Came back with severe bed bugs bites. (never ever gonna stay in that stupid hotel again, eventho the location was fab for shopping).
2) made a decision yesterday - will reveal more once I have given it a through thought and an action plan.
3) Search for potential new J has started. hopefully with God's grace something will happen.

Another Sunday ? Dissipating Hope?

As friends of mine know, every sunday I am an early riser. I am up before the sun is up to be in church. Yes.... Its been going on for years.

And also for years there is chap who has been going to church i believe for as long as I have. But long ago, my family used to seat at the front pews. Like the first few 5 or so. But since the new priest came along couple of years back, we have had to move back to the second sections of the pew. Coz this priest uses alot of incense throughout mass and my nose can't take it. I feel suffocated.

So since the last few years, I finally began to notice this chap. I believe he is eurasian. So i was hoping that one day I would have a chance to cross path. Years went by, prayers went unheard. Then for the last 6 months I haven't seen him in church anymore. Until today.

During his absence of the 6 months, his sister has given birth. and today there is baptism for babies. Maybe thats why he came. He did came to mass but alas! with a beautiful chinese girl in tow :)

I don't know this person but only seen from afar but yet I have this tinge of disappointment in my heart. Maybe its more of a feeling of dissipated hope.

Its not easy anticipating the next birthday which is very soon on the way. Not very easy to accept the fact that one is turning older and yet nothing in sight. Years of prayers that doesn't seemed answered. Maybe like they say, every prayer is answered and maybe the answer is a No.

How does one as a Christian , decides to do? Go on praying? give you praying? Still hold hope that God hasn't forsaken one?

Its easy for some ppl of other faith judging Christians. But tell you it isn't easy being a Christian. We have struggles too more so when you are closer to God. If you noticed, alot of people always have this judgemental way of approaching Christian. It aint' an easy journey esp this Spiritual journey. But without hope, is one's life worth living.

Lately

I gone for a holiday at all this year. It has been work work work. Due to my project. When my project ended in Oct, I wanted to take a break. During MATA fair, my friend and I went to buy those ground packages. Planned for a long awaited trip to BKK.

Then... bad news had to prod along. My TL, has been in this other proj for while since last year. He travelled to Canada and USA for this proj. Suddenly when its about to come to implementation time, he is passing the bug to someone else. Guess who is the lucky soul - ME!!!!
And the worse thing is, they have a workshop in US next month. But i can't go!!!! WHY? coz it clashes with my vacation.

Yeah some might say just cancel your trip. But have you to understand, its just no me involved in this vacation. My friend will be damn pissed. Coz she was looking forward to this also. So I stand firm in going for my vacation regardless. Sometimes when you give in too much to the co, it becomes more detrimental to you rather than otherwise.

So its my luck. don't get to go but have to work on the project. When will my luck get better.
anyways.. my visa has expired!!! hehehe so if i get to go...(if they change the dates!!!, pray!!!and hope they do), then I can get new visa on the expense of the co.. MUAHAHAHHAHAA

Lets see how it goes.

Oh yeah.. I have spent my Award money!!!! :P The secretary was complaining how I was the last one still who has not submitted it for claim. Well next is my dead line.. doing it first thing in the morning. :P (will take photos of the staff.... and post it)

P/S On another topic, I have been trying real hard to stay positive. Glad to say it has brought some good feeling within me. Eventho' i still go through bouts of sadness once a while.

Things that you said you would but never gotten to do it...

You know what i meann rite? Year after year that new year resolution, that month resolution, etc etc. hehehe.

But u end up not doing nothing about it.

Aiii. sad to say I have some task pending. I know i should do it more regularly but somehow the lazy bone got better of me.

I need to lose weight. And I did embark on that. Then half way off, it sizzled off.. hehehe....
I need to start it again. I met up with ringgit yesterday, and he commented i put on weight. :(

Aiyoooo.. dunno what to do.
Its the age believe me. i don't eat much... but yet.. its boom boom up the scale.

List of things i should get going on
1) Lose weight - ideal would be 50KG
2) repaint the apt.
3) save money to furnish the other room with bed and a cupboard.
4) GET ME A HUSBAND!!!! :P

Ok better not have too many!!!!

The story of the Raven

The Story of about ravens. Or as most of us here would call it the crow.
as we all know, all those spooky, evil - devilish shows always have the raven in it. Raven the sign of ill omen.
Yesterday I went to watch the movie Seekers and as usual when there is a story about darkness vs light... good vs evil, ravens appears throughout the movie. On a side note, I do not recommend watching this show... not worth your money lah.

Anyways... when watching the show, it triggered some memory, something which happened to me about 1 month or so ago.

Here goes... MG's encounter with the Raven.
One Sat morning, I decided to follow my sister to this mall... there are some shops close by to the mall where my sis takes her daughter for music lessons. I had wanted to get something from the mall so I decided it would be ideal for me to just get a ride with and then wait till the music class ends and I shall get her to pick me up.

around 1.30pm, I left the mall and waited as instructed at this side of the road near the cross road... As i was standing reading the JJ's mag, i felt something like flew pass my head - almost touching my hair - maybe it did i wasn't sure. Then i turn and i saw this crow behind me.. perched on a bill board.

I moved a little to my left.. - moving down the road.. and finally settling infront of a TNB power box. suddenly the very same crow flew infront of me and stared at me right in the eye. I had an uneasy feeling and my heart started to beat really fast. I felt something wasn't right. It was like watching me and waiting to attack me. I quickly reached in to my tshirt and pulled out my crucifix and within seconds , the crow flew away right to the other far end corner of the road - on my right.

Phew....
So what do you take of this.????

When I spoke to my mom about this, she told me that maybe "IT" sensed something good about me... so its more like good vs evil.

So what they say is true, when you're closer to God, the more you need to pray..... Don't let down your guard.. coz "ITS" always awaiting for the moment when you let down your guard...

Or for the less religious, this could be just a freak incident.

Either way, I thank my Guardian Angel and the good Lord for giving me the wisdom to pull out my crucifix.

I wonder...

day after day
week after week
month after month
year after year...

Its a cycle that goes on and on.
U wake up, you go to there.. eventho' sometimes your heart just don't feel like doing it.
Your legs gets real heavy and as soon as you're there, your moods just dies.
Your day turns blue.
Gets worse when you have to talk to some arseholes. Who annoys you to pieces....

Recently i read two articles... each talks about how you can never be truely happy with the tang of sadness creeping in. coz thats part of life.. its a norm.

Hmmm....... and i read this in a religious news paper... hmmmmmmmmm
written by a priest............... hmmmmmmmmmm
hehehee
I AM NORMAL LEH!!!!!!!!!!
ITS NORMAL TO BE BLUE ONCE IN A BLUE MOON
BLUEEEE MOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

The End of a Chance

Have I thought about it since I made the decision about 2 years ago? Of course.

Sometimes my mind goes back and forth. Wondering if I have made the right decision.

Most of the times, these thoughts come about when I am facing tough times at work.

I guess its not so much of a regret but more of pondering.

But who knows someday a chance might come up again but maybe this time to a place that I really want to go to.. and would pack and go in just a blink of an eye.

The Quietness

There has been lack of updates.
Been figuring out what my life is all about. Yeah its that time again.
The time when I get pangs like this.. and I do some self wallowing.

Review is almost up and I am trying to figure out.. to stay or to go. Coz i can just predict the script will be read once more.. over again.

*wish me luck*

Rest In Peace - Dear Sarah

Today marks, 3 years, since the passing of my SIL - Sarah.

Her children are growing well with the love of Grandma and aunts and uncle. I pray to God that He will continue to shower his blessings on these two kids.

And I pray that my Brother will find his way back to God and not forget his children.

Rest in Peace - Sarah.

The end of 9 weeks

Yesterday was my final week of LSS. After successfully going for 9 weeks without skipping a single friday, its now the end of the road.

I would like to share how I feel after the 9 weeks. I have been blessed that was given the gift of tongues during the baptism of the holy spirit and for a couple of weeks on, my spirits were high.
As warned by my facilitator of my group, its now that the journey will begin to get tougher.

Indeed that was true. For the last 3 weeks of the LSS, I have been going throught spiritual dryness. I have to say, things got worse after i found out that my situation hasn't gotten any better at work.

It takes a lot of work to be close to God. The closer you are, the mr S.A TAN will try to lure you away. With great regret, I have to say this, for the past 3 weeks, Mr. TAN has won me over.

But I hope to gain momentum and strenght again to move forward.

So pray for me.
Currently in my mind, I just feel that God has abandon me. I have having thoughts that its better not be a believer as too much obstacles are placed infront of me, which sometimes I deem, too much and I am just tired.

Its a loop that never ends, like the world goes round and round, the issues just keep coming back hitting the fence and the shit hits back right at you.

Yeah!!! Award!!

Finally after being the company for 3 years, I have been given a recognition award....
Now, what should I spend it on. As part of the company's policy, you cannot keep the cash. they won't give you cash either so you would need to spend the amoutn given in the letter and then claim.

The amount is about RM700. So what shoudl i buy with it??? a Watch? tissot?
Well it can be more than one item....

Actually I have been down the whole week, after the merger life really stink.
and everyone is clamouring for glory and visibility, alot of power crazy Arse and biatch....

So any suggestions on what to do with the $$$$

anyone?

Hey anyone ever reads this blog anymore??

hmmmmmmmmmmm

drop me a comment.

oooo.. a compliment

I was away for a 2 day softskill training.

Its a very participative sort of training lah. If you don't say anytnng, u will also be forced to open your mouth.. hehehee

Today was the last day, and when i walked up to the instructor to hand over my evaluation form. She said to me, "MG, you have a flair for this"
I went, a flair for this? this?
She said, yes, analysis skills, problem solving skills, dealing with people. You should leverage on it...

and half the time in the course, we never discussed tech stuff.. muahahahhaaa...

WHOAAAAAA someone who recognize that I have some ability...

WOW
eehehe...
made my day ....

Resisting Temptation is HARD!!!

On Friday, I saw this pair of shoes that I have been eyeing on. It cost about 400+ and when the sales started, it was only going for 30% off. Then on Friday, during lunch hour, I took a walk to that section and saw that.. it was now going for 50%.

I liked the brown color... so I asked the sales person to get me my size. She went in, came out and informed me that there is no more size 7 in brown. But they still have the black in size 7...
I don't know what made me say, no i prefer the brown. And I walked off.

Then over the weekend, my mind keep floating back to that pair of shoes. I even thought of driving back there just to get the black ones.

Then today I decided, I would go during lunch.. AIYAH I forgot i will not in the office but will be somewhere else attending training but its close to office. So the whole day, i kept thinking... should i or shouldn't i. Do i need it... but I WANT it...

AIYOH what a dilemma.

Then I had to head back to the office eventho' my head was throbbing like mad. Then with great resistence.. I didn't walk to the shop to buy the pair of shoes.. YEAH!!!!!!
RESISTING WAS HARD!!!!!!! But I am glad I resisted.

kept telling myself, I don't need it.. i dont need it.

I believe I deserve a pat on my back muahhahahaa.

Its been a while

Bleeep...
been awhile.....
alot has happened

changes at work, merger, now I have TL... some !*@&#!*@ but what to do, can't do anything about it... just be a idiota and work ....

Praying hard for some peace within......

What Season of Woman Are You

You Are Fall!

Thoughtful Expressive Creative Poetic Smart

What Season Woman Are You?

How appropriate!!!! I love Fall...... I don't like the end of Fall but the beginning of fall is so pretty... oh I so miss it!

Mood Swings

I have started a mood swing label. This is to gauge how much my mood swings.. muahahahahaa.

Anyways... I don't know for whatever reasons... I felt happy yesterday. Like cherry chirpy happy.
Its Friday - so that maybe a reason why. But its really funny, I don't feel a tinge of worry. Eventho my trip to down south for my project is in dits and my travel plans had to be changed many times much to dismay of the travel agent. hahahahaa. I have to email her again to tell her i need to change the flight time once again.

But I was happy.

I attended LSS that nite. This is to go on for another 6 fridays or so. I was upset with a friend but still... i felt like there is some lightness inside me. Its a good feeling... really.

Well I thought it was PMS, as I am having my best friend ... but i doubt it. usually with PMS its the negative side of emotions.

SO hmm.. I am wondering how long this happy feeling of light giddiness is gonna last. :P

Cheerio....

Harry P and price war

We all know that the last book on Harry P is released today. Since months ago, some big book stores have been having the pre-order thingy. And the promotion was immense.
Alas, all went down the drain due to the price war. 2Hyper markets decided to sell the book at a much cheaper price. I was going for RM109 at normal book stores but these hyper M decided to sell it as RM69.90.

Thos big players decided to make a strong statement and 4 of the big kahunas decided to Boycott. Meaning , the book is only available today at their book stores and from tomorrow onwards they will ceased to be available at these 4 major book outlets. But pre-ordered copies can still be collected. Hmmm...

Read all about it here

Funny way of retaliation rite? I would think the copies at the hyperM are limited, hence poeple will still buy from retailers. So why punish the readers becoz of this price war.

MUAHAHAHA i got mine at RM69.90 but seriously if i got there and it was no longer available, i would still buy at the normal price and most big book stores were giving like 10-20% discount. It won't be at the HyperM's price but ... still it will be slightly cheaper.

Also all planned events related to HP will be cancelled as of Today.. Dang. those kids will be disappointed.

But I am happy Camper :P

Saturday.....

Yesterday after having done with my presentation, I was so happy. I thought I did a good job eventho' some of the feedback was information overload. But others said they found it to go be good.

After week of terrible headache and anxiety, I chose to sleep early and then wake up to clean the house. But I couldn't wake up early enough to sweep and mop the whole place up. As I have to be at Mid for Harry Porter by 11am. Hence I decided to skip that and instead of going home straight to my hometown after the movie, I will go back to the apt and do some housework.

Harry Porter was alright, not as boring as I thought it would have been after listening to ppl's view on the movie and such. Still bareable. I didn't book the last book in advance tho'. I thought I would just stop by the book shop and get em since I don't want to line up to get the freebie which is like what? First come first serve basis. No thanks lah.

The mall was bloody packed. people were driving around like crazy when I was walking to my car in the car park. Few even trail me... hahaha but of no sucess as my car was parked way at the other side... the new parking side. One manic drove against traffic just to trail me to my car.. and one lady screen down to ask me where is my car.. hahaha. My Goodness... i thought with the extra car park in the J area, there would be more than enough but as we know our people and shopping malls... any amount of parking space would never ever be enough. I can't imagine when The Gardens opens up. Traffic would be worse. But i heard this new mall would have I- the setan lah... and robinsons.. hehehe.

Yeah yeah I ain't go to life.... Shopping mall is my life kiddin.gggg

I went back after having grabbed a bite after the movie. Was tired by then.. beating traffic and all. I managed to mop the hall, etc. Will continue the chore on monday.. washing the washarea and the bath rooms.. bLEAAAH.. living alone is like that loh.. Everything you pow kah liao.

Transformers...

OOOO watche transformers today....
My colleague was nice enough to book it online. I went to collect the tics during lunch. Thank Goodness we booked online.. if i were to lined up to buy the tics probably i would never get them.

the show was GOOOOODDDDDDDDD........

I recommend watching.
No cute guys.. just cute autobots. hehehee.

Good Stress reliever.

I have a presentation this Friday... wish me luck.

Lunch Today

This morning, I had 2 half boil eggs for breakfast and a slice of bread.
Then i when I got 2 work, I just continued working. At around 11am, my stomach started growling but i just decided to take it all in until lunch time.

At 11.45, I headed out and went to the food court. Since i was hungry, I decided, I felt like having curry mee today.

I ate the curry mee happily and then when i got back to my office, I felt totally sick. Wanted to puke my guts out.

Till now, I feel unwell..... It must be the oiliness... that i can't take anymore.

Should have just gone with the sandwich for something.

But of late that is what has been happenning to me. I feel hungry.. then when i was time to eat, I can't really eat.. or I eat then feel totally.. like wanting to throw up.

I guess the stomach problem is back...

At work today, I was home alone until my boss got in after lunch. 2 col away overseas for project. 2 on leave. But I didn't get much done coz i was such a sluggish monday....

Glooooommmmyyyy..

Fears - Faith

I subscribe to Fr Philip Heng's messages. So daily I receive this quotes especially its inline with what the readings are for the day. Today I saw this in my mail box

Ord. Wk 13th: Wednesday 4th July, 2007 (Mt 8:28-34)

Fears – Faith: In today’s Gospel, Jesus expelled demons that were causing
much harm and fear to the people. What do you fear most in your life? Could it
be the fear of demons, illness etc? The Lord’s Spirit can dispel all your fears,
but you must learn to trust Him at all times. Ponder on how you can do this.

Fr Philip Heng, S.J.

Its pretty profund huh. So what do i fear most in life.

What I fear most when I was still in High school but managed to win over it during college and excel but it seems its back to haunt me now....

But I must learn to trust him at all times..... how? thats something I have to really ponder.

My fear - is one that has been affecting my life for a long time. But I am not going to write about it. Some time i think , people tend to take it upon themselves that they know whats going on and that they are the smart ones with advises and their sarcasms in their tone (in their mind the good intention of helping you)... Really??? Maybe so....
But I can say this, no one can truely understand what you go thru. Coz they never lived your life never experienced what you go thru in life. Hence they could never ever truely comprehend until they walk that path. I can say this, coz it was thru experience a friend found this out. How? he used to berate me.... and then one day he walked that path.. it was so excruciating that he actually told me face to face, i understand now what you go through and I am sorry for saying all those things to you coz now i know what kind of hell you went through. It was so bad that he now understand why sometimes I don't feel like waking up.

I am not saying that one shouldn't help another. Of course as a friend you should always provide your advice your perspective as from an outsiders view, as it may be clearer. But don't ever ever sit on your high horse and assume you know every DAMN thing a person goes through. Thats why sometimes it better to have empathy. don't just rush into giving advice or try to relate it to how you have done things before , etc. Remember every individual is diff.. hence the uniqueness in each one. No Two person is ever the same, they can be alike but never ever the same.

Sometimes people just like to say things coz they have to let it out to avoid going insane.

I like what this lady has written about in her blog.
http://harajukucat.wordpress.com/2007/06/14/life-of-stress/
This point i like :
3. Go home and talk about your day with your partner/family /friend and if you live alone call someone up!

Thats what sometimes people just like to do, rant once in a while. Give them the chance and lend a ear and don't be too judgemental.

Little Things

L I T T L E ' T hings .

As you might know, the head of a company survived
9/11 because his son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn't go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.

One of them
Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.

One's
Car wouldn't start.



One couldn't
Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work
But before he got there, he developed
a blister on his foot.

He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid.
That is why he is alive today.


Now when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone ...
All the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
This is exactly where

God wants me to be
At this very moment..

Next time your morning seems to be
Going wrong ,

The children are slow getting dressed,
You can't seem to find the car keys,
You hit every traffic light,
Don't get mad or frustrated; It
May be just that
God is at work watching over you.

May God continue to bless you
With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose.

Pass this on to someone else, if you'd like.
There is NO LUCK attached.
If you delete this, it's okay:

A M E N

You Know.....

After being in the working world for 10 years now, I can seriously say, the corporate world has a funny way to reward hardworking adults....

They reward you with more work... piling them up until they reach your neck and above. U suffocated and then eventually.. with amounting stress, you start getting.... weird... sometimes to the extent where you have dreams of stranggling your boss. hahahaa.

Isn't that true. If you noticed, people who dont' work, always gets away with everything, they get paid for doing nothing. All becozthe boss knows that they can't deliver on time. They have good life. While people who work, they bosses needs them. So they become their effort of making these bosses shine...shine shine.

I am abit tired i tell you. But i always noticed, people like me never gets away with anything.... If i try to slack.. it will come back and bite me.

I believe if you have been reading my blog lately you would knowthat i won the war recently on the piling of a new workload. But its just a tiny war. The battle still looms. Everyday dark clouds just gets darker.

But as the bible says, we are here to earn a honest living. So I pray that I will be able to endure the stress that is given me each day and that I will continue to be able to sustain my sanity.

They say, God will not put you into something which he knows you won't have the strength to overcome it. So maybe God's telling me that I have much more in me than I think.

But lately I have also been trying to adopt the "boh chap" attitude abit. I just do it but if in the end the outcome is like sai.. its ok.. at least I can say that I did it. But if biatch dont' like it, then please by all means assign it to someone else. It will make my life more blissful.... nyek nyek.

Do you look your age?

hehehe... confirmed. I don't... tut tut

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself. You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

Do You Look Your Age?

What European City Do You Belong In?

This is me.

You Belong in Milan

Stylish and sophisticated, you want to enjoy a truly European life - away from tourists! Milan fits you perfectly. Great shopping, high quality food, lots of culture... with very little hype.

What European City Do You Belong In?

The Brain Just Can't Stop Ticking

Yesterday nite, while watching tv, I was also multitasking. I was working....
Was troubleshooting one of my issues which has been pending for 3 months now.

I worked on it until past 12 midnite.
I felt tired, I went to sleep
But alas!!! i couldn't sleep. Eventho I thought i was sleeping but I could like hear my thoughts and felt like i hardly slept eventho my eyes was shut. I woke up at 8.30am feeling extremely tired. But I had chores to do before meeting up with friends for lunch and then for a movie.

See, my brains just can't shut off... I amprobably in the wrong line having to keep thinking and analyzing... its now even causing me my sleep.... booo hoooo...

Fantastic 4 was ok for me, eventho I have read ppl saying its a waste of money. The Torch.. has got nice blue eyes. My fascination with blue eyes goes back since the time I was still in pinafores. Still hasn't died it seems.. this fascination of mine.... muahahahhaa. *Dreaming*

888

I left work late today... and work is not done yet.
Later tonite I would need to logon to my work laptop and work... gosh... for the puny salary i am getting, i wonder if this is all worthwhile. But then I need to always remmeber, I have my baby to pay for. BLEAAAAH

Anyways.... after I left work, I decided to go to MV to buy something that I have had my eye on and also to change money for my business trip next week.

i stopped my car at the parking bay and I saw this......















oooo ooo.. nice number.. 888.

After 20 years it died on me

*Snif*Snif*

On the day I got back from my vacation, my watch stopped ticking. I thot it was the battery, I took it around town to get the battery and the strap replaced but many shops didn't have strap that small in size.

today I went back to the shop that changed the strap and battery for years.... it was right opposite my previous work place. the lady told me they no longer carry that sort of strap coz the size was too small... then.... i said ok, could you then just change the battery. She said ok.

She took the watch to the back. took her a long while
then she came back outfront and say. miss.. rosak already. I change battery but not working. So not battery problem. Watch rosak!!!

:~~~~~
After 20 years, its has not departed from me. So sad ah....
Maybe its time for a new one.... change change...
too much change.. in a short time.

Thank You , Lord

After the whole episode of anxiety for days and sleeping with my rosary cluthed in my hands, I thank the Lord for the positive outcome of things.

Eventho' I can tell at today's meeting with B that B wasn't happy with my response to her assignment but at least she didnt force it down my neck. she says she has some plans.. yeah probably the plan to kill me... sooner than later.

Anyways, she said loading people with more work is the norm and its expected that you'll be stressed. What kind of crap talk is that. there are few in my team who does nothing. MIA for almost the whole freaking day and their job can dump on people like moi who does work. If that isn't unfair than i don't know what is...

Anyways, I thank God for what the outcome is for now. But have to keep praying that that B don't have her insane attack and suggest another crap.

I am wondering if she is blind.

Having Sleepless nites due to some idiot's decision

the biatch at work decided to make my life difficult. On Last tuesday I was on Medical due to some bad nasal congestion. When I got back to work only to get an email stating that the biatch is planing to put me in some project.... HELLO have you forgotten that i have a high profile project that is on a very tight schedule.

Then that nite I couldn't sleep.. at 2am I decided to write the biatch an email. As at 8am that day I am due to take a bus to my vacation destination. Bloody shit.. for her to spoil my holiday. I didn't sleep a wink from 2am until it was time for me to head out to the train station at 6am.

I haven't opened up my email as yet. But i have been praying hard that the decision is reversed. If it ain't i can tell you my hair problem would soon be back.

if you're hardworking, at in a coporate world youre not compensated but instead you're being punished with more work.

So peeps... please pray for me.
Lord Almighty, I lift up this issue to you. Please help me....

GH.....

The Grand Hyatt, Singapore. Awesome place.... n so close to Orchard Road.. - the Shopping Haven.

Hmm.. G, can i use the tables thingy for this.... seems like that html code are too complicated.

Hmmm....

Ok, i checked my site meter and found that my blog was visited by someone from Taipei and from the ministry of education. Sounds damn spooky.

Makes me wonder who are the people reading my blog.. and what they find interesting about my blog esp when I write about nothing much but bitch more about everything more :)

I am feeling much better now... after a nose of gastric medication and flu medication for my nasal congestion. I was sick after engaging on a treasure hunt since last friday. The heat and stress of wanting to be top 10 kind triggerred all these.

today I am stayng at home to rest. This is becoz if i don't, i know i won't be getting any better.

After yesterday's espisode at work, I believe I better rest more for a battle tomorrow.

I wonder why God puts us in these sort of situation. Why can't for one part of my life be peaceful..... But then again... I guess we will never really understand God's ways.. 100%.

Also on my family side.. things hasn't been so well....

So my christians readers, I ask for your prayers.... I ask you to pray for my family to be able to endure this times of darkness which I hope will soon pass and also for me the darkness and oppression that I am facing esp at my working place.... We could all do with more prayers rite....

Ciao....

Some people are just born as A!*@&#!*&@#

Ok ok i know i promised to be positive but due to an unforseen circumstances i want to bitch about it to get it out of my system before i fester fester and die!

Ok we a level above the level i am in and they are suppose to be like pro in this area.

I tell you some people are born to be ARRRRRSSSEEEE !*@&#*!@#*&@!. They just want ot make life difficult for you.

Its Ok... PIECE of sHIT... one day life will get back at you....

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Pray for me that I won't lose this F**** J bcoz of some ARR*!@#*@*&&@##*#.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

How Times Has Progressed

About 11 years ago when I came back from spending couple of years abroad earning my Bachelors, I came back only to find most of the fav brands are not sold here.

1) Nine West
2) Gap
3) Banana Republic
4) Jcrew

just to name a few.

11 years on, 3 out of the 4 brands have reached our shores...

Butttttt
Price is still horrendously high :P

Loving Yourself

We have heard this phrase many times.
I have also been told many that I need to love myself.... first before being able to love another person. Sometimes I wonder how true this is. I am not sure if I blog about this before. Earlier this year, I went for confession and I am not about to reveal about what I confessed. But to cut a long story short. After my talking part was done, it was the priest's time to talk. And the asked me, do you love yourself.. And I without hestitating , replied, NO. And he was ardently shocked... he said, you're very honest. Well Honesty is something I can vouch for.

Anyways, as months passed by I do believe do at least I love myself a slightest bit and honour God enough to abide by His laws. I recently came across some disheartning news. Someone I know went to get rid of a "certain" living thing in the w*mb. I think u know what i mean. firstly I am not here to judge. But to think to kill another living being is so cruel. Why does that innoccent being have to pay for mistakes not made by them. And to think that she did this more than once, its even more sad and disappointing.
I wonder sometimes, does she love herself enough or is she looking for love from the opposite sex so that she can love herself? Needing to belong to another to feel the self-worth of herself. I am not here to judge but I wanted to say that at least I love myself enough to be able to stand on my own feet everyday... and being able to live with me.. being able to go shopping alone, being able to eat lunch alone... dinner alone.... with not a bate of an eye.

I may not love myself totally but there is tiny bit of love in me :)

Its a progress.. no?

Harder than I thought

Since my last vow to complain less and to take action. I have to say, its been harder than i thought.

But the truth is, I have been trying real hard. and I can really feel the stress. I have started to complain less but still got lah abit.

When I feel down, i keep reminding myself why I have to work.

But I have to say, i get frustrated pretty quick... My proj is goin down the drain... Pretty bad state ler.

But then i keep telling myself, I did what i can. It aint' myself.

And to have work/life balance, on certain days I no longer bring back my lappy. Unless I am on call.

I don't want to login over the weekend if there isn't anything urgent. Hwatever it is, its up to me to balance my life coz if I drop dead, the co ain't gonna care.

A baby born on the same date.....

Finally trading my P for a H. After 10 years of owning P, I have finally taken a big step in making this decision.

Last Monday, I went to pay off the downpayment and the guy showed me my H. It has just arrived from the plant that day. On the windscreen, it showed the date when the goods was assembled at the plant and it was the same date as my b-day. A SIGN!!!!!! It really indeed was meant for me muahahahahhahaa.

Unable to reveal more information due to security and safety reasons.

This will be my motivator to go to work everyday as I now have taken on a financial debt....

Promise to Myself

Funny that today, I woke up early and decided to make a change.
I had a conversation with one of my "trusted" colleagues yesterday. I told him, I can't change who my SI TOW(ST) is so I just have to yan and do my work. Then he said yes, thats the way to go, no point complaining when things are beyond your hands.

then I woke up today and decided on this

1) Complain less
2) If not happy, find a solution
3) Since I have just accumulated a new debt, I have to keep that in mind and that shall be my motivator to go to work everyday. Be it how depressing or sickening to see the BIATCH.
4) Talk less to team mates aka less complain.
5) Keep more things to myself but have a plan aka take a short course or contact friends to see if there is opp on the non-tech area (hint: let me know if you know of any of those sort of opening).
6) Save more aka bring lunch to work, cut down on extravagant meals hehee
7) Lose weight aka 3 more KGS to go.
8) Start an exercise regime
9) SHutdown mind after working hours aka no work laptop over the weekend unless absolutely necessary.

This is my promise to myself....
Funny that when I visited ringgit's blog, i found the entry about turtle.
To me it seems to reaffirm my decision.

The Day Flew By

Woke up today around 8.30am.
Took my shower and then went online and watch tv for abit.

Headed out to meet my friend to go get a haircut at ss2. she arrived around 10.45 albeit 15 min late...

See i have this flaw where by i can't speak canto. I can understand the basic stuff but i sure can't get myself to speak it. I noticed that people then to shun away when they know i can't speak. They feel weird speaking to a chinese in english. SCREW THEM.

anyways... i told the guy to JUST TRIM TRIM LEH. But he kept snipping snipping at the end.. it looked like i had a cut!!! Anyways... its ok lah. But its RM36 leh.. compared to my normal RM13 HAHAHAHAA.

After this hair cut I decided to keep my hair long. The last time I had long hair was when i was in University. Well it was cold there. But by the time i graduated, my hair was no longer long :P Stress really propel me to cut my hair after each final exam.. hahahaha. I had a friend in uni who told me at the rate I am going , i will be bald .. hahahhaa.

After the haircut, we decided to eat at Swensen. I haven't stpped into swesen for a long long time. EWWW the food is not good lah!!!!!! maybe its the branch i dunno. But waste of my money.....

At 2pm, I wnt for facial. it took 2 hours and at 4pm i am home. so tired. and there goes my Day off.

oh yeah.. in btwn. my shithole PM called. people off day lah DUNGU.

Thank You.

Thank You for making my big day a great one.

Life has been quite stressful with the lack of sleep and the PM and boss hounding me down.

Without exception today, I worked non stop and meetings after meetings but still glad i made it out of my office to be able to reach intime to have dinner with Bahija and ringgit.

THank You Bahija and Ringgit for a nice dinner :)

This is my first time meeting Bahija.. my verdict
NICE, SWEET and Happy person. Very bubbly and chirpy :)

thank you Bahija for the Tamales.. YUM YUM!!!!!!!!!

Day is almost over and conclusion is, its quite a good day.....

Had a surprise from folks that I support... tey bought me a cake. My team didn't even bother to do anything...

A day of sweet surprises. :))

Had to break my silence for this....

This morning, I saw in the sun paper....the hardcopy.

*GASP*

So decided to take it from the online one http://www.sun2surf.com/article.cfm?id=17624

Shoes and handbags to cost more
Vasugi Supramanian
PETALING JAYA (April 16, 2007): Consumers will now have to pay more for high-fashion shoes and leather-related goods such as handbags following a decision by the Malaysian Footwear Manufacturers Association (MFMA) to increase prices by at least 10%.

The move, which has already been initiated by some of the 476 MFMA members, is a result of the 5% to 30% increase in the cost of raw materials such as plastic and leather.

"Despite the increase in prices of shoe components like heels, outsoles, soling sheets and adhesives, we have not passed on the extra cost to our consumers. But, we are not able to absorb the recent sharp increase in the price of raw materials anymore," MFMA president Lisa Fong Lai Heong said at a press conference today.

She said leather prices have gone up as much as 30% since the year began, and may be on the uptrend for the next six months.

The cost of leather makes up about 60% of the total production costs for leather shoe producers, Fong said.

Currently, 80% of MFMA's raw materials are imported from India, America and Brazil. Up to 80% of its finished product of women's footwear is sold locally while the rest are exported mainly to Europe.

The increase in footwear price will eventually be adopted by all MFMA members. However, even with the increase, Malaysian footwear will still be among the cheapest within Asean.

Fong said the price of locally-produced footwear has long been relatively stable for the past few years compared with other products which have seen price adjustments due to inflation.

She added that the recent price increase in raw materials was due to East Asia's robust economy and overwhelming demand for furniture and motor vehicle upholstery.

She noted that the situation is expected to worsen in the coming summer as less buffalos and cows will be slaughtered during the season of low meat consumption.

Updated: 09:35PM Mon, 16 Apr 2007

DAMN CRAP....
Already shoes are expensive. Raise the price sommore. I need to wear slipper to work liao. Better go get my Furla bfore its too late hehehehe.
2 of greatest passion.

So....

IT WILL BE ......................

SILENCE..........................

TILL....

DUNNO WHEN.................


CIAO

A Conversation

Yesterday for dinner, we had chili crabs. Fried dry with loads of dry prawns as the condiments. This one buy one lah.

Anyways, as i was seating down eating I had this conversation with mom. This all arised from an email from someone i know who is coming back from AU for a holiday. An ex-col whom i hardly heard from since she moved to AU about 5 years ago.

Don't you think its kind weird for people to write email with contents such as I have a big favour to ask you. Shall tell you more when i meet you. What kind of crap is that.

I am not very comfortable these days when ppl call or email me with such statements. I just went thru a bad expereince of a good old friend who said that to me but didn't want me to know more about the situation but just wanting That specific favour from me. I declined coz i didn't know the full story and from the looks of it, i might be putting myself in danger.

I asked my mom, how come God always put me in such situation. people only think of me when they are in trouble. how about me? Dont' I need friends when I am in trouble. But when i reach out , no one extents their hands. I wonder why.

I told my mom that sometimes I just want to give up on my faith. Coz i no longer understand God. And I wonder after so many years, whether its worthwhile anymore to go throught all these....

My mom said to me, if you think you're better off sitting at home and not attending mass anymore, then you try it. hmmmm.... no scolding nothing. Just that one phrase.

Yes, currently my situation at work and life isn't looking up very well. Doubts seems to be abundant. Also I have decided to leave the ministry that I have gone back to serve. Its back to square one but I am sure I will find another ministry which is less political....

When Shit Hits the Fence

That phrase was used by my ex manager last time. He sucked as a manager. But anyways.. that was the one time he actually stood up for me.

He told that to someone... and then repeated that to me. Saying that these ppl dunno when shit hits the fence, it comes back and splatter on you. KEKEKE so true hor!!!!!

ANyways.. i was thinking about that phrase today. The shit has indeed hit the fence and its hitting me.... in bullet drops... No wonder i smell something :P

Life has beenn darn tough I tell you.
One project the proj manager is like a stalker and the other - doesn't give a shit, expect me to do his job. For Goodness Sakes, you're the PM...... Not my job to run around fine you resource.

So its been darn tiring.

But i wanted to say this.. the hotel i stayed in when i was in SG was damn nice hehehe. Like sua ku lah when i was there. Wanted to take pictures but the second nite, i had to work late so when i got back was totally depressed coz i had hit some problem so didn't feel like taking pictures. But I had some from the day before, will post it up once I find my camera cable.

This month - will it be good.. doubt it. i turn 3* this month.. :(

Putting on the Thinking Cap

If you have been reading this blog for awhile now, you wld know that I really want to get out of my current field or at least the pure tech side.

Not that I haven't tried. Couple of years back when I decided I wanted to leave the old co, I applied for some business analyst job thinking to get into the business side of things. They did call me in for the int, but told me its for a dba position. bleaaah. Due to desperation to leave anyways, I took the offer. But that didn't last long.

Hmmm.. I have toying with the idea of getting another BS or BA in psychology. But thinking about studying for a few at Bachelor's level, I am not sure whether its worth it. Still toying with the idea.

Below are few of the things that I have been brain storming

1) Psychology? - can i do masters instead of a bachelors??? since i do already have a degree from the US of A?

2) Executive/prof diploma in Counselling - or is this a bad idea, since I am the one who needs counselling or maybe i will learn a trick or two and manage myself well??

3) Learn up some IT process thingy and get certification - stay in the same field but move to non-tech side?

Any other other options ah???

MBA too bloodee expensive lah. I need a scholarship.. if i were to do one. Maybe i should sit for GMAT or something......

P/S okok i will respond to comments lah next time, so don't be dishearten that I didn't reply the comments loh. Kena reprimanded by someone hehehee.

The Disease

i saw ringgit online yesterday.
and i told him

me: I have a serious disease.
ringgit: huh.. what serious disease.
me: SHOE CRAZE disease


HAHAHHAHAHA

yeah he was shocked.. hahahahaa.
it is a disease no matter what, isn't it?

I bought 4 pairs of shoes in this month itself. and i can't stop.

I got to have some self - restraint or else gonna have a big regret and a pocket with holes in it.

Is this really me?

Did the blogthings thingy again.

So kalut lah. I am trying to get out from Tech leh. Imagine seeing this result. DING!!!!

heres the results

Your Birthdate: April 25

You excel at anything difficult or high tech. In other words, you're a total (brilliant) geek. It's difficult for you to find people worth spending time with. Which is probably why you'll take over the world with your evil robots! Your strength: Your unfailing logic Your weakness: Loving machines more than people Your power color: Tan Your power symbol: Pi Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

My experience to the previous post

Ok.
I didn't compromise my ethics nor my principles.
And I am darn glad I didn't.
currently I am faced with the situation where my PM is a blinking piece of SH!*@*@*@
But anyways... i have stood by what i believe is right and it seems to have turned out well.

Thank you Guardian Angel and Holy Spirit for Guiding me.

I base my decision on how I will be able to live with myself after a decision is made.

Lets hope the good prevail.

Would you compromise your principles?

Recently, I have been faced with a dilemma.
Before I tell you what decision I took, I will ask you.
To what extent would you as a human and a person who works in the corporate world go to save your job? or to protect your future investment in the company - e.g promotion, going up the corporate ladder??

Do you think that going against your principles and ethics, and gaining the achievement in the end is worth the while?

Worried

Work has been quite worrying these days. tomorrow i have to do a review of my document with 6 supervisors. A few of them are here from CA.

I hope everything goes well tomorrow.

I am kind of tired.....

Wonder whats all this is for....

I have been looking for this for so long

The picture above is from gap website.
I have been looking for a pair of shorts like this for months now. Unfortunately, I did see some nice ones but they were way way too expensive. Like over RM100 fora pair??? hey man.. I haven't reached that stage to insanity yet to buy a pair of short for RM100+++

So my quest is still on to find a good reasonable priced one.

But i did try one at esprit bfore CNY i find that you actually look better in it if you're like thin and have smaller thighs. I have to say my tighs is beyond help. Unless i go back to sprinting or dancing ballet again maybe it will firm up.. hahahhaa.

Time Passes By Quickly when you're having fun??

I find time passes by so quickly when I am at home and relaxing. Isn't that just sickening. In about 1 day's time I will have to head back to work again. Sort of regretting my decision to go back to work on thursday.

Nothing much to say , except, I have wanted to post some pictures, but somehow the cluts in me have misplaced the cabel for my camera. So can't dwnload. and my brother's one doesn't fit. He kept saying eh everything about your camera is like non standard. Yeah lah.. not expensive like yours mah.. mangkuk.

I want to sell my camera, I know its probably not worth that much. But then a few hundred $$$ is better than nothing lah.

I have loads of work pending. But then i decided i wont open my work laptop at all and just hack it when i go back to work on thursday, which I anticipate will be long nites again. Aii... all these to earn a living. Sometimes i wonder even if its worth while.

I have been taking the plums... suppose to clear the bowels and the usus layer lah. Tapi hor.. it didn't really work for me. Its not cheap leh. I read that ppl lose like 3kg lah balbalbaa. Mangkukk betul... i didn't lose lah. just went to pass motion abit easier only.. tats about it.

now have to find another way to lose weight.


AIiiii.. would you do work during your holidays?? unless you live and breathe work rite?

I am so not like that. maybe 10 years ago I would be... but things has changed so much. Further to that, I no longer know what i want. HMM... sign of mid life crisis.

Single or Married....

Today I met my university mate for lunch. She got married about 3 years ago. And last year she lost her mom to cancer. We haven't really got in touch after she actually got married.

THen today i came out that she has been having fights with her husband and some stories told were quite distressing. I mean i know the husband while he was still in secondary school. And when were in college i did meet him a few times.

But the looks of it, she lost every freedom she has. Every freaking day he calls her. Checking on her. Like a real tracker. When she is outstation for work, he even calls her after midnite every hour. What the heck is wrong with this person??? I don't get it.

I think her husband is insecure coz she is a pretty lady. And since college/uni time alot of guys have been going after her. BUT DUH. She can't help it, its in her gene that she looks pretty. But imagine having to endure a husband like that.

She told me she has told her husband many times that if it carries on, she might call it quits. Its quite disstressing isn't it... to live with this day in day out. she is not even allowed to go out with her friends. If she does, she is being said to be not putting him priority.. WHAT CRAP! Seriously.. In this bloody scenario.. i would say single is preferred hehehheee

So married also has its problems but single also has problems.. loneliness kills you. When you get home, you see the 4 walls. no one to really talk to!!!!!

What a dilemma this world is...

Looks Easy, I should try it one day.

saw this in a blog

http://babeinthecitykl.blogspot.com/2007/01/baked-macaroni.html

Looks easy...

One of the things I will try to do this year is to , try to cook and eat at home.
Tired of eating out and eating maggie mee.

Other things for 2007
1) Lose weight (haven't been successful)
2) Go for a Vacation - Bali/HK? *anyone interested to go? don't have kaki to go with ler!!!!!

What a Day

Today is off day due to a public holiday. Yesterday nite I had a meeting for church ministry and only came back at 11pm. I watched American Idol and then went to bed.
Woke up this morning at 9am. Just made myself some drink and then started to clean up my apt.

Clean there and here until my fingers hurt. Completed around 2pm and had a call telling that the delivery lorry is here to deliver my DVD hi fi player. Yup i exchange my lucky draw microwave for that and top up around 200 to get that. Then i went downstairs. the driver and the attendant was frantically looking at the back of the lorry and they came down and I approached the driver and he told me those ppl didn't load my stuff onto the lorry so he will come back later around 5-6pm.. DARN.. waiting again.

Tiring day eventho' its holiday.

Things hasn't been going so right lately. So I am desperate need of prayers again.
I feel my life going down spirally.

Plagued by a Disease

Ok this disease isn't those that kills you.

Its the obsession with shoes disease. Since last year it seems no matter how mmuch I try to curb from buying shoes, I just don't have the will power to resist.

This is totally out of hand. I have start making a conscious effort to remind myself...

I guess my obsession with shoes and bags is becoz feet won't grow fat mah... same size until maybe unless it grows when you're preg and it stays big and not go back to the original size.

Have to start controlling myself....

Need to plan for a vacation this year!!!! Can't tahan anymore.. STRESSS killing me!!!!!!!!!

Freaky Friday

I wanted to blog about last Friday but due to unforseen circumstances, I have had to do some work on Fri nite, sat and even today. I only have time to blog after I have sent out the documents to my US counter part.

I was in the office at 6.15am on Friday. I had realized I didn't have the phone no of my counter part that I was suppose to have a conf call with at 10am local time. So what to do, woke up early and rushed to office and was in office by 6.15am which is about 4.30pm her time. Dail the no, ring ring ring but no answer???? Darn! So what to do, call helpline to get a conf bridge. And sent her the details and hoping that she would read the email before the meeting time.

the problem is it was so difficult to even get an appointment with her so i am not going to waste this chance ya. And at 10 min before the meeting she messages me and asked me to call her house. Waa damn kiam siap rite? Can't even call the conf brige. Never mind loh. I call her.

The whole freaking day at work was bloody bz. Resolve ticket, edit document. And head was hurting like shit.

I left work at 4 as i couldn't take it anymore. Head was pounding.Decided to go to MV coz i need to get some stuff.

DAMN FRIDAY!!! JAM and got into MV, no parking, no place to dump the car either to go pay for the ticket so i can leave. ESP after driving round P2 for 45 min!!!!!

Left MV after 45 min... and guess what.. Jam all the way back to my apt... Whats with Friday???? Darn it man....

Today...

I feel like crying..... Tears are welling up but I am just trying not to let it fall....
Feeling totally down the pits.
Its just the beginning of the year....
Sure darn hope its the end of the world.... end all of this crap....

Ahhh... Feels so Good

Its finally Friday. Ahhh.. i can breathe more easily. Been stiffling at work and bloody stress too.

nothing much to say except.... everything seems to be status quo.

Have to do some work this weekend. Aii.. don't you just hate having a laptop.

I am going to sleep well tonite and wake up late tomorrow.. kekekekee.

Snoring

Firstly I woud like to establish the fact that I am a very light sleeper. Hence its scary when I go for camps, trips, etc.

Sometims I have been lucky to have roomies that are ok and do not snore.

Since my mood is slightly better today, I would like to blog about this. Over the last weekend, I went for a camp and 3 people were assigned to a room. One of them quite a big size lady. Before I knew who my roomies were, i called my mom and said to her, i hope i won't get someone who snores!!!!

Bloodey bloodey Crap. This big lady snored throught out the whole freaking nite and blardly loud too. I didnt sleep a wink that nite. And what made it worse was i had one more nite to go.

I wonder how next time. Should i interview my future husband first on whether he snores... and actually find out whether he snores hahahhaa Coz i think life would be horrible if the snoring is for life. Noise pollution would be horrendous.

MUAHAHHAHAHAHAA